Wait on the Lord
I keep checking everyone's blogs and expect to see something new and exciting and nobody ever posts anymore.... of course, I am one to talk. What is wrong with me?
I haven't been posting either. I think it is just the summer thing for me. No real schedule and I have slacked off on the homeschool thing and I guess I am taking a break, which I have never done in the years past. This will be year # 7 for homeschooling. Wow. I normally keep doing school through the summer months so we don't get out of our routines. But nooooooo.... not this year. Kim had to go and be a slacker. Too bad I'm getting used to it now. I have had thoughts of public school in my mind again and think how much easier it would be to keep the house clean and do projects if there was nobody here all day long. Wow. How selfish is that? When I know God has called me to train up my children. So I have been hunting curriculum for Ethan's science and social studies. I think I know what I am going to use, but I didn't get to go to the big homeschool conference this year to check the stuff out.
I haven't had very many fun days to myself this summer. My grandpa and his girlfriend (kids call her grandma) are not doing so well this summer and grandpa had what may have been a small stroke, but noone really knows from his tests. He really shouldn't be driving anymore and my mom, who watches the kids on thursdays, has not been able to watch them much cause she is running them around town to their appointments and out to lunch, etc....
So right now I am very thankful for my college classes because then I get to go study and get fed word for a few hours straight. How awesome is that. Plus I am by myself and get to fellowship with other seekers/diggers of the word. Those nights are great. Wednesdays are good too but they feel rushed and not much time for fellowship because everyone just wants to go home after a long day. We usually have to go home and make something to eat because my children always think they are starving....
We have been going to the park lunches almost every day.... well except the days I know that they are having hot dogs. I think, "what is the point in that?" That would take me 3 minutes at home and it is a waste of my time. Now some of the other stuff is really worth the trip to the park. Stuff like, school Pizza, walking tacos, BBQ pork sandwiches, fresh strawberries, cherries and fruit...
Sometimes we go swimming and sometimes they just play at the park. There was another homeschool mom there today, so we sat and chatted for a while. I realize how thankful and blessed I am when I get a peek into some others' lives. She is a believer too and she has great faith but man, is she going through some stuff. Sometimes we just eat and run back home too.
Edgey's grandmother is sick and found out that she has cancer - engulfed her pancreas, some of her liver and a patch in her lung also. When we were in New Mexico for the wedding, we prayed with her and I really feel a bond with her and I am not sure why, but she has been on my heart lately and I feel her burden. I would like prayer from y'all if you would because I am feeling like I should go down there to help take care of her. This is a big deal for me, because I would have to take a leave of absence from work, take the kids so we could do school and leave Edge here all by his lonesome so he could take care of the house and bills. He is going to support whatever the decision is.... So I have been really praying about this. I can't imagine it to be from my flesh because it is not something I would normally feel I should do... you know "up and leave" "quit my job" "take all my children alone for however long" - totally out of the comfort zone
And the bad part of it is that I feel guilty for thinking I should because I am not even offering to help out with my grandpa and his problems.
Anyway, that is what I am dealing with right now. My friends prayed for me on Tues night after class. I need to hear from God so I am trying to be still and wait on the Lord.
Something really cool - "Wait" in Hebrew means "to braid". As I wait on the Lord, I will be braided together - united with Him. The way the instructor told us was to think of it as One strand is the Father; one strand is Jesus; and one strand is me. I am the only one that is actually seen. The Father is invisible. Jesus is invisible. The Holy Spirit is invisible.... but I am braided into strength that is beyond myself and I am covered in unity and one accord with God.
Blessings
I haven't been posting either. I think it is just the summer thing for me. No real schedule and I have slacked off on the homeschool thing and I guess I am taking a break, which I have never done in the years past. This will be year # 7 for homeschooling. Wow. I normally keep doing school through the summer months so we don't get out of our routines. But nooooooo.... not this year. Kim had to go and be a slacker. Too bad I'm getting used to it now. I have had thoughts of public school in my mind again and think how much easier it would be to keep the house clean and do projects if there was nobody here all day long. Wow. How selfish is that? When I know God has called me to train up my children. So I have been hunting curriculum for Ethan's science and social studies. I think I know what I am going to use, but I didn't get to go to the big homeschool conference this year to check the stuff out.
I haven't had very many fun days to myself this summer. My grandpa and his girlfriend (kids call her grandma) are not doing so well this summer and grandpa had what may have been a small stroke, but noone really knows from his tests. He really shouldn't be driving anymore and my mom, who watches the kids on thursdays, has not been able to watch them much cause she is running them around town to their appointments and out to lunch, etc....
So right now I am very thankful for my college classes because then I get to go study and get fed word for a few hours straight. How awesome is that. Plus I am by myself and get to fellowship with other seekers/diggers of the word. Those nights are great. Wednesdays are good too but they feel rushed and not much time for fellowship because everyone just wants to go home after a long day. We usually have to go home and make something to eat because my children always think they are starving....
We have been going to the park lunches almost every day.... well except the days I know that they are having hot dogs. I think, "what is the point in that?" That would take me 3 minutes at home and it is a waste of my time. Now some of the other stuff is really worth the trip to the park. Stuff like, school Pizza, walking tacos, BBQ pork sandwiches, fresh strawberries, cherries and fruit...
Sometimes we go swimming and sometimes they just play at the park. There was another homeschool mom there today, so we sat and chatted for a while. I realize how thankful and blessed I am when I get a peek into some others' lives. She is a believer too and she has great faith but man, is she going through some stuff. Sometimes we just eat and run back home too.
Edgey's grandmother is sick and found out that she has cancer - engulfed her pancreas, some of her liver and a patch in her lung also. When we were in New Mexico for the wedding, we prayed with her and I really feel a bond with her and I am not sure why, but she has been on my heart lately and I feel her burden. I would like prayer from y'all if you would because I am feeling like I should go down there to help take care of her. This is a big deal for me, because I would have to take a leave of absence from work, take the kids so we could do school and leave Edge here all by his lonesome so he could take care of the house and bills. He is going to support whatever the decision is.... So I have been really praying about this. I can't imagine it to be from my flesh because it is not something I would normally feel I should do... you know "up and leave" "quit my job" "take all my children alone for however long" - totally out of the comfort zone
And the bad part of it is that I feel guilty for thinking I should because I am not even offering to help out with my grandpa and his problems.
Anyway, that is what I am dealing with right now. My friends prayed for me on Tues night after class. I need to hear from God so I am trying to be still and wait on the Lord.
Something really cool - "Wait" in Hebrew means "to braid". As I wait on the Lord, I will be braided together - united with Him. The way the instructor told us was to think of it as One strand is the Father; one strand is Jesus; and one strand is me. I am the only one that is actually seen. The Father is invisible. Jesus is invisible. The Holy Spirit is invisible.... but I am braided into strength that is beyond myself and I am covered in unity and one accord with God.
Blessings
posted by Mrs Edgey at 7/27/2006 01:46:00 AM
2 Comments:
When I go back to college I will post more than I do now at least once a week JK. That's way cool about the braid word thingy I like that:)
Live on blogger,
Alex
I will be praying for you Kim. You will make the right decision. Love ya!
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