Wait on the Lord

I keep checking everyone's blogs and expect to see something new and exciting and nobody ever posts anymore.... of course, I am one to talk. What is wrong with me?
I haven't been posting either. I think it is just the summer thing for me. No real schedule and I have slacked off on the homeschool thing and I guess I am taking a break, which I have never done in the years past. This will be year # 7 for homeschooling. Wow. I normally keep doing school through the summer months so we don't get out of our routines. But nooooooo.... not this year. Kim had to go and be a slacker. Too bad I'm getting used to it now. I have had thoughts of public school in my mind again and think how much easier it would be to keep the house clean and do projects if there was nobody here all day long. Wow. How selfish is that? When I know God has called me to train up my children. So I have been hunting curriculum for Ethan's science and social studies. I think I know what I am going to use, but I didn't get to go to the big homeschool conference this year to check the stuff out.
I haven't had very many fun days to myself this summer. My grandpa and his girlfriend (kids call her grandma) are not doing so well this summer and grandpa had what may have been a small stroke, but noone really knows from his tests. He really shouldn't be driving anymore and my mom, who watches the kids on thursdays, has not been able to watch them much cause she is running them around town to their appointments and out to lunch, etc....

So right now I am very thankful for my college classes because then I get to go study and get fed word for a few hours straight. How awesome is that. Plus I am by myself and get to fellowship with other seekers/diggers of the word. Those nights are great. Wednesdays are good too but they feel rushed and not much time for fellowship because everyone just wants to go home after a long day. We usually have to go home and make something to eat because my children always think they are starving....

We have been going to the park lunches almost every day.... well except the days I know that they are having hot dogs. I think, "what is the point in that?" That would take me 3 minutes at home and it is a waste of my time. Now some of the other stuff is really worth the trip to the park. Stuff like, school Pizza, walking tacos, BBQ pork sandwiches, fresh strawberries, cherries and fruit...

Sometimes we go swimming and sometimes they just play at the park. There was another homeschool mom there today, so we sat and chatted for a while. I realize how thankful and blessed I am when I get a peek into some others' lives. She is a believer too and she has great faith but man, is she going through some stuff. Sometimes we just eat and run back home too.


Edgey's grandmother is sick and found out that she has cancer - engulfed her pancreas, some of her liver and a patch in her lung also. When we were in New Mexico for the wedding, we prayed with her and I really feel a bond with her and I am not sure why, but she has been on my heart lately and I feel her burden. I would like prayer from y'all if you would because I am feeling like I should go down there to help take care of her. This is a big deal for me, because I would have to take a leave of absence from work, take the kids so we could do school and leave Edge here all by his lonesome so he could take care of the house and bills. He is going to support whatever the decision is.... So I have been really praying about this. I can't imagine it to be from my flesh because it is not something I would normally feel I should do... you know "up and leave" "quit my job" "take all my children alone for however long" - totally out of the comfort zone
And the bad part of it is that I feel guilty for thinking I should because I am not even offering to help out with my grandpa and his problems.
Anyway, that is what I am dealing with right now. My friends prayed for me on Tues night after class. I need to hear from God so I am trying to be still and wait on the Lord.

Something really cool - "Wait" in Hebrew means "to braid". As I wait on the Lord, I will be braided together - united with Him. The way the instructor told us was to think of it as One strand is the Father; one strand is Jesus; and one strand is me. I am the only one that is actually seen. The Father is invisible. Jesus is invisible. The Holy Spirit is invisible.... but I am braided into strength that is beyond myself and I am covered in unity and one accord with God.

Blessings

Crazy Week

This week has just been nuts for me..... it seemed way too busy and not enough time....rush rush rush
Last weekend was work and it was busy.
Monday was the start of VBS at Westminster Presbyterian in Des Moines and I let the kids go every year because they absolutely love it. It is a day thing from 9-12 all week long. Ethan was bummed out because he was too old for it this year.
Ethan and I ran errands - had to go order my contacts at the store because they wouldn't just call them in for me.... bread store, bank, etc...
Picked up the kids at noon and went to the free park lunch. It was rainy so we didn't stay too long that day. We went to visit my grandpa. I can't even remember what happened monday night.

Tuesday - same thing. VBS, park lunch; it was fairly nice out that day so we stayed a little bit longer. That was the day my nephew went- We dropped him off at Ashworth pool and went home early. I let the kids watch videos in the afternoon. Tues night was the first night of my college class again. This term I am taking "God's Holy Word" and "Covenant" classes. The covenant class is awesome! I am really excited about it.

Wed - same thing. VBS, park lunch, swimming - come home & shower then Church night. Went home and passed out.

Thurs - same thing. VBS, park lunch, definitely swimming because it was so stinking hot! Ethan had karate and mom watched the kids for a couple hours while Edgey and I went on a quick date to Subway and Sam's club. He had to get food for the men's breakfast at church on Saturday. There was so much that had to be kept cold that we had to drive all the way out to the church to put it in the fridge. Got home about 11:30 and passed out again.

Friday was Jesse's 6th birthday. I woke him up for VBS and said. Happy Birthday - You are 6 years old. He looked at me and pulled the covers back up over his head and said, "Don't say that mom. It's not my real birthday." I said, "Yes, it is..."
He said, "No. We'll have my birthday when we have my party." He is so funny.
So on to VBS. I bought him a KFC kids meal for lunch. Then we had to wait for the Springer Pest guy to come spray our house for these awful fleas that were trying to take over. The joys of dogs. Then we had to leave for a couple of hours so we went shopping for Jesse because he wanted to pick out his own birthday toy. Off to Target we went for a couple of hours. I had dropped off Ethan at Holiday Water Park to swim for the day. The other two spent a lot of time looking at toys and finally Jesse found what he "always" wanted, which was a GI Joe Sigma 6 Ninja set with Snake Eyes and Storm Shadow and a DVD inside. Then he found a TShirt he wanted so we got that. Elizabeth was crying because I am so mean and wouldn't get her any toys.... since it was not her birthday. She apologized for her behavior later that evening.
Then we went and picked up Ethan & his cousin at the pool and took everybody home.
Jesse & Ethan played with Ninjas and watched the DVD and Elizabeth packed. She and Jesse spent the night with Auntie and Ethan stayed home to watch some other karate video. Edgey and I went to children's church meeting at Hoss' house. We again got home around 11:30.

So then Edgey and I both had to get up around 5 a.m. so I could go to work this weekend and Edgey went to cook the mens meeting breakfast at the church.

I hope this week is a little bit slower so it can catch up to my brain speed.
I need some time to "not think" if you know what I mean.